So now that it's out

Or well, since I've finally thought it through and have been a complete coward I can also admit it here: Person 2's never been and isn't the person I really truly love. I didn't even fancy him in the first place and it was wrong of me to think so. It was also very wrong of me to harm him by deceiving him, although I didn't do it willingly. I believed I liked him. But in the back of my head the only thing I thought was 'Why can't Thomas behave like that? Why can't it be like that with Thomas?'. I couldn't look Person 2 in his eyes or tell him that I like him. I never did so and we didn't see each other at all for nine weeks, but I didn't miss him at all. Thomas? I miss him every second. I almost started crying today because now he's in the other building and I can't see him every day. He is and was the one I want, no matter what. Even if he'll never like me. Even if he hates me. But I love him. Or rather, it's stronger than a crush, but of course it isn't real love.
So, that's been what's been bothering me for a full nine weeks now. I chickened our and didn't tell Person 2 directly today, but he demanded I tell him per text and now I feel heartless, but I'll get over it.

For a happier thing: Today was so funny, I missed my dear girls so much :D We had a rather hilarious moment when we saw our music teacher whom we all adore dearly, and we thought he'd gone into a class when we went into a rather loud 'OH MR. G...HE'S SO CUTE! NAH HE'S SO HOT BECAUSE HIS PERSONALITY MAKES HIM LOOK MUCH MUCH BETTER' -swoon. (He really is one of the persons who I'd first regarded as ugly, but then getting to know what a nice, cool guy he was, I'd come to like him. Though I don't have a crush on him as I do with the other Mr. G - but who isn't crushing on that Mr. Sexypants of a PE-teacher? - I loove him as my teacher). Well, who then just went around the corner? Mr. G. And he'd heard us all. The look he gave us was priceless, unbelievably funny. I think I died a little from laughing.

A repaired Kindle! I'm so glad they took the destroyed one in without any problems, although I'm still a bit afraid that they'll say something about the j-breaking. Hmmm...