So, I guess I don't really know why I feel so weird. Might be because it's 8 p.m. and it's getting very, very dark now. I don't like that in the least. I wish it was still sunny outside until 10 p.m.
Of course I won't be feeling glum for long, the new season of Glee starts today so I should be happy.
But I'm lamenting the nearing end of the holidays, somehow. Because these holidays seemed extra short and my favourite week passed by too fast. Now, I'm not talking about Italy, I'm talking about the week before that. My brief True Blood-obsession (I even dreamt of it afterwards, haha), later that week the working out in the evenings and the watching Glee and the ice-baths, The Fresh Prince being aired again, the good music, maybe also the obliviousness of my travelling to Italy the week after that contributed to a great week.
Do you know that feeling when a day just seems right? For me it's mostly afternoons, which turn a formerly bad day into something awesome. And then, when you try to copy everything maybe the next day, it feels good, but it doesn't seem right. When you try to copy it a week after that, maybe a month, then everything feels so completely off that you just decide to call it quits and keep the memory, but don't attempt to repeat it. After that, something very similar comes and you're just happy. I have that very often and I had it a lot these holidays.
You know, if I think about working out and taking ice baths all the while re-watching older Glee episodes NOW, it seems so wrong and I don't think I'm able to do that. For me, summer's over. Sad, but true.
Weirdly enough, I also experience that often with games. I play a single game very excessively, am overjoyed and later try to rekindle the love I had for the game. Doesn't work, though, and I just decide to wait until maybe one day I'll want to play it again.
So, it's really dark outside now and the wicked thought that it would bring me ultimate peace to slit my arteries crossed my mind. Don't be worried now, though, Glee's on and I'm already laughing again. But that just goes to show how much I hate early sunset, right? :)
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I get what you mean, especially the game part. You just have to treat it as a nice memory, let go of it and move onto your next nice memory. It's hard but we can't repeat it the same, as you said.
Enjoy your Glee and shizz, yeah early darkness sucks
But then, sometimes - as with games - suddenly you get the urge to play it and it just feels good again, but not the same as it did before ;)
Maybe I live in the past too much? Or rather, I want to re-live the past too much? Hm..
GLEE'S NO SHIZZ! Early darkness is, though, it made me randomly spend €100 although I actually wanted to save them this time <.<
100 euros on what? O_O
Yeah maybe you're right. We jiust gotta let go of the past and look forward to the future I guess :3
An epilator and an eyeshadow palette. And yesterday I went shopping with my mum (usually I'm not a person to buy things very often, but when I do, I'm usually very content with it. The shopping was spontaneous, though, and a lot of fun :D)
I guess we should just live in the present, dreaming too much of the future can be disappointing, too, when things don't go as planned :)
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