Awww

Just watching old shows on a website, it's SO nostalgic. I'm actually close to tears, just because it's reminding me of my childhood. Right now I started with Full House and even though I wasn't even born yet when this show was cancelled, I watched re-runs all throughout my early childhood. And I grew up watching it, like so many kids before me. God, I LOVED this show! And it feels great watching it. Seriously though, it's moving me. I miss being so small and not having any fears or worries. I kind of miss making up interviews with the characters and recording on my cassette recorder. I miss the old MTV 2. I miss Super RTL when it wasn't Toggo. I miss animes when they weren't just shown on RTL 2 Pokito. I miss playing with my friend and I miss staying out with her until 10 p.m., pretending to be characters from DoReMi. I miss that one vacation on the Maledives, with the big ants and the white sand and the blue sea. I miss all those shows with the canned laughter, so old that they're not shown anymore, anywhere. I miss it. I miss it all. I miss my life as it was.
Now, I've gotten really sentimental. But you know, I often tend to think about my past. It's so sad and pathetic because I can't bring it back. I'm really shedding a little tear here. You remember my time-rant on New Year's Eve? Well, it's been stuck on my mind! It's already almost MAY! And I'm getting unhappy thinking about how I'm growing older, how it seems just yesterday that I started school. Just yesterday that I was so little, not caring about anything. And even though this is inappropriate right now, just yesterday that my dad died. I kinda would've needed him in the last three years. It just robbed me of the last remains of my childhood. Sometimes I wonder if I could've become any different if this hadn't happened. Perhaps I would be more blue-eyed, more innocent, more actually believing in a perfect world rather than just dreaming of it.
But of course, you will never know. And I guess we have to accept the present as it is, because we CAN'T change it. We can only make the best of it. This is what I'm trying to do every day.
And I'm going to buy some DVDs of the shows, so I will always be able to watch them. Golden Girls, Fresh Prince, Full House, Home Improvement, you're all gonna be MINE!

Hello Jesse Katsopolis! And hello to your mullet, too! And to your armpithair, too?! - Hello Danny Tanner, it's like your eyes are trying to tattoo some rules and JUUUSTICE into my brain even after all these years!
(Though they were quite dreamy guys, you have to admit! They're the heroes of my childhood!)

 As an ending note, Jodie Sweetin/Stephanie was so unbelievably cute! And she's gotten really pretty, just like Candace Cameron/DJ. I love them all!

 (Real real ending note, sorry for that rather heavy and sad post, it just came over me. My apologies!)