Okay WTF

Seriously. You're not gonna tell me that it's almost fucking 2011. I am shocked. Truly.
I mean, wasn't it just January? Where everything seemed so calm and wintery?
Wasn't it just February? Where I saw my aunt's new flat for the first time?
Wasn't it just March? Where I got so sick that I had to stay at home for two weeks?
Wasn't it just April? Where I started adoring Christian Bale and got Pokemon SoulSilver?
Wasn't it just May? Where the weather was so good that I spent days on the balcony just being happy with everything?
Wasn't it just June, one of the best Junes ever? Where I got sick again, but not so sick that I couldn't enjoy the days a lot?
Wasn't it just July? Where we moved and I found out how fast time is passing?
Wasn't it just August? Where I loved reading Kodomo no Jikan and staying up forever?
Wasn't it just September? Where I dreaded going back to school but then ended up having a good time?
Wasn't it just October? Where I was alone so often, but never really unhappy?
Wasn't it just November? Where I failed at finishing NaNoWriMo and towards the end injured my foot?
Didn't December just start? Didn't I just turn 15? Where is the happy Advent-time? Where is the waiting for Christmas? Where is the silence that swallows every noise you'd normally hear?
And seriously, wasn't it just 5 pm? When I stopped playing Saint's Row 2 and saw that Idiocracy would be aired later?

Now, I feel a bit sad, because I'm watching a chartshow about the best songs from the 2000-2010. And I know almost every single one of them. That may sound cheesy, but every songs bears a short story for me, representing the biggest event in my life during the time that song was played a lot. I actually want all those times back, happy or not. I want to go back to 2001, where I discovered MTV. I want to go back to the year I had that awesome New Year's Eve at my gran's. I want to have MY time back. (Especially the last two years, but let's not get into that now.)

Fact is, it's almost 2011. Time goes by too fast, faster than it ever did before. I hate being so nostalgic, but I'm home alone. I have too much room for thoughts about all the things that happened in my life so far, and I can't help feeling that mixed feeling of sadness and happiness. I wish I'd like alcohol, so that I could at least wash away that stupid feeling with some red wine, or at least be so drunk that I'm unable to think. But I don't like alcohol, and even though we have some red wine here, and I'd be willing to drink it, it's still unopened and mum would kill me. And we have no lead at home, so no lead-pouring for me either. (But I just found out that wax works too, gonna try that!)

Now for my New Year's Resolutions:

• I will find Mr. Su
• I will not buy so fracking many nailpolishes.
• I will keep my room tidier.
• I will not let myself be held down by others.
• In fact, I will give a wet shit about others' opinions.

Okay, that's it, enough of my ramblings. I'll post pics of my waxworks if they turn out good, so expect the next post from me next year! (Harharhar how funny. NOT.)

A Happy New Year from the Hogmanay(hooray Scottish!)-hating Su! Go out and watch the fireworks, at least they're pretty every year!

All the best wishes for you and your families, see you in 2011!