I just came back from our school ball. Wow, that was a really good time. Except for the fact that I saw Thomas a lot. And I just wanted to dance with him, but I know he'd never. As well as he didn't even talk to me a single time. I'm really about to write a sad/confused/angry text to him. I just don't know. He's such a wonderful guy, and I've known one thing since the first time I'd seen him: He'd be perfect for me. Perfect in every way. You don't find guys that are so intelligent, polite and social these times. He doesn't smoke, has only recently drunk something for the first time with friends. He's funny, has a great smile and looks stunning in suits. He's really really good at school, always friendly to everyone and uses words before his fists.
The only thing he lacks is interest in girls. And I don't only mean me, I also mean the much prettier girls! Sone suspect that he's gay, but then again he could just tell ke, or couldn't he?
Well, if he talked to me I could ask him all those things and tell him what I think about him, but he ignores me (it almost feels like he's avoiding me!)
I'm actually at the end of my knowledge. I just don't know what to do at all anymore. Help me, quick!
(Apart from all the shit going on in my mind, it was an awesome time. We danced to old songs, barefoot because our shoes were murderous. A few teachers were there and rocked the dancefloor. There was a disco upstairs, but it was really too loud for me there. Even though Thomas happened to be upstairs for the rest of the evening, we stayed downstairs and danced. Oh god I fucking love him. Stupid assbastard. I fucking fell in love with him when I was in FIFTH GRADE!!)
2 comments:
Glad you had a good time, too bad all that happened.
If it helps, I act like I have no interest in girls in front of other people even though you KNOW I do. He might be acting the same. I dunno.
Still, try to focus on the fact that you had a good time. That's the main thing. Things with Thomas will work out, I'm sure...
Problem is: He doesn't act like it and everybody else says he isn't actually interested in girls. I don't get him.
Yup, that's what I'm doing. I dunno if it will work out, I hope so. But again, you can never be sure.
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